So I sent out all my bridesmaid's cards! Immediately, everyone said yes except my MOH. She wanted to go out to dinner and I figured I would get my answer then. In her text she kept putting :) so I figured it was a good sign, right? We get to dinner and we're chatting as normal. Then our meal comes and she starts picking at it. That's when I knew something was up (we NEVER pick at our food, we always dive right in). Then she looked at me and she had tears in her eyes and told me she doesn't think she would be able to make it to Jamaica and she really didn't want it to ruin our friendship. OMG! I would never let something like that ruin our friendship!! We've been best friends for almost 7 years now! I told her it was okay, I wasn't expecting everyone to be able to make it anyways. She then told me she would love to be my MOH at home and throw my wedding shower, bachlorette party, and whatever else there is to do.
Dinner continues and we are talking more about vacations and she brings up something that makes me second guess WHY she wouldn't be able to make it. She mentioned that because her boyfriend has MS they really can't take trips to warm places like Florida or JAMAICA. I WISH I would have something right then and there because it is eating me alive now. I'm really curious if she is not going because her boyfriend wouldn't be able to go?! If so--that IS a deal breaker and potentially a friendship ender (and I would NOT consider that being over dramatic!)
So we go out to dinner another night and I decide that I'm just going to work up the nerve and ask if that's the case. We get on the subject which is a perfect segway in. Then a convo starts about who is all going. I mentioned that Lexi, Jessica, and Jean all said yes (the only other bridesmaids). She then gets really quiet. There goes my segway because how am I supposed to ask her when it looks like she is already hurt that she is not going to be able to make it. So after that I just convinced myself that it truly is because she cannot afford it and not because her boyfriend wouldn't be able to go. Let's hope I'm not lying to myself...
489 days :)
